oh god!

today,...
11.45 a.m..
31 july 2009..
i received a phone call from someone i've been waiting since like forever.
who?
hmm,..
its my agent,...
she called and me telling me a good news but actually not so good,...
hmm,...
i was so happy at 1st,..
but after she told me everything my happy-ness level when down from zillllllion to ZERO.
have could this happen to me?
i tot everything will be ok,..
but,,,
oh god,..
y cant u make my life easier.
i really want it to happen...
i been dreaming bout it since day 1.
but,...
ya!
u cant change what is written for you,,,,
unless you try hard enough.
i guess i wasn't try as hard as i think.
but,,don i deserved it?
i been wishing it,,
i been craving it..
i been wanting it \,
so freaking badly!
please!!!
help me,..
make me accepted.
make me go tru with it.
make me happy again,..
OH GOD,...
IM BEGGING YOU!


p/s : i received an offer letter but....i'l update the detail and the answer soon.